can i be just a crybaby for one day? this day really sucks! well i don't have the authority to say bad things today and forever kc nga of my promise to ^ at mamaya pupunta ko kina tita mel for the celebration, i don't really know why or for what.. basta alam ko tungkol sa ^ i thank him for everything he did for me ^ lalo na yung pagkasama ko sa final qualified applicants sa epldt pero this day? dapat me exam ako sa accenture i was having second thoughts kc parang masama pakiramdam ko i even asked for a sign again kc di ko nga sure if i'll go or what.. kaso yung mga sinasabi nila angs and pheng about accenture keeps echoing in my head at parang ayaw tumigil.. kaya i decided to go na lang kahit na masama pakiramdam ko and i even asked him again ^ to guide me specially on my way there kc baka maligaw ako c0z makati's a big place pero nde excuse yon yung taguig nga napuntahan ko mag isa tapos makati lang nde ko pa kayang puntahan? dba? so i went there pero wala lang walang nangyari para lang akong naground trip from cubao to makati then makati to cubao nde nga ako bumaba ng bus c0z the conductor said na ibababa nya ko dun then nakalimutan nya hayun.. naiiyak na talaga ko kanina as in sobrang pigil na ang luha ko ang sakit na nga ng lalamunan ko buti na lang me tissue ako so yun.. buti na lang me tv din dun para di ko maisip yung nangyari kanina.. nakaka inis talaga gusto ko na umiyak kanina.. maybe bec0z i didn't get to take the exam in accenture naubos pa money ko dun then gutom pa ko and everything.. tapos ang dami ko pang nakikitang couples nakaka inis because they were so sweet nakaka inggit... being single really #@!* then i thought of what if kami pa? sana nagpakamanhid na lang ako then i wouldn't have to let him go because he hurts me so much that i couldn't even take it kc puro na lang iyak ang nangyayari sa lovelife ko.. angs already said that he wasn't worth to give another try kc with the way he treats me.. no he's not violent or something kaso masakit yung ginagawa nya driving me away from him, ang sakit nun dba? telling me things that he likes someone better than i am.. i don't see the point? why do he have to do that? gusto nya lang siguro ko makitang umiiyak sa kanya.. because i don't want him to go.. never in my life that i wanted him to leave naku.. eto nanaman ako.. gusto ko na talaga iiyak lahat para mawala na toh.. i just wanted a little space to think and love myself back without all the hassle or something.. pero wala eh.. instead he chose to keep quiet about it.. d ko pa narinig sa kanya i mean eye to eye that he loves me back and he wants me for the rest of his life e ngayon yun yung nafifeel ko kayo etoh! i know i was a fool to let go and let him leave me.. he chose to believe someone else instead of me.. dba masakit yon? then just last month or a couple of months of im not mistaken he even told me that he still wants me back.. pinapakiramdaman ko lang naman eh.. i don't know if he's playing or what.. nalilito na ko.. pero ngayon? its much clearer kc he already have a new gf.. so much for waiting.. ang sakit talaga.. kaya gusto ko buhos na lahat ng luha ko pagsasama samahin ko na yung sakit para mawala na lahat kaso can't do that kc walang time.. kc pagod na ko the whole day pagdating ko ng bahay antok na ko so wala rin the next day morning.. i have to wake up early para maghanap ng work and then the same routine over and over again so wala talagang time.. pero sana dumating yung day na meron talagang right guy for me.. yung he'll stay for the rest of my life.. taking care of me and loving me unconditionally basta someone i could really share my life with yung hindi marunong manakit.. masayang kasama.. always there.. a friend.. a companion.. basta kaso wala na yatang nag eexist na ganun sa panahon ngayon..